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It really all comes down to what I decide.
I hate that it's all on me.
I wish there was some way to know what the right thing was...
Like how in Futurama, The Professor wanted to know what life would be like if he had invented the "Finglonger."
This is my Finglonger.
EW DUDE.

Part of me says this is right. This. Right here.
Another part of me says "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!? STOP BEING SO SELFISH."
Am I selfish? Is this the selfish way? Isn't both decisions someway selfish of me? So either way I'm losing. I've lost. There is no winning on my part.
THIS IS NOT A GAME.
I need to remind myself of that.

I almost puked in my car on the way here. I was having one of those terrible sudden realizations and it caused a panic attack. I felt like pulling over on the side of the freeway and running down the hill into the woods. To be lost. Since I've lost.

I saw a picture today... it was really ugly and creepy and it made me sick to my stomach. Then I just kept staring at it and I started to understand it's not so ugly... and it's not creepy at all...

OH MY FUCKING GOD.
I hate being a girl :(
Emotions and all that shit.
Someone called me weak today.
Thanks.
I thought I wasn't.
Lately though, I haven't been feeling so strong.
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so i realized that "Thanks for the Misery" is probably the worst song to listen to when you're in a bad mood.

damn you Reggie!
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i just needed to remind all of you.




Chuck Norris sleeps with a night light not because he is afraid of the dark, but because the dark is afraid of him.

Chuck Norris’s dog is trained to pick up his own poop because he dosen’t take shit from anyone.

Chuck Norris once visited the Virgin Islands. The are now simply The Islands.

Chuck Norris Counted to infinity- twice.

Superman owns a pair of Chuck Norris pajamas.

Chuck Norris does not have hair on his testicles, because hair does not grow on steel.

Chuck Norris plays Russian roulette with a fully loaded revolver…. And wins

Chuck Norris once had a heart attack. His heart lost.

Chuck Norris can drown a fish.

Chuck Norris dosen’t use pickup lines….. he simply says “Now.”
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Midair Love Message

Kisses are never safe when residue of old love is left
how could I feel lesser when someone better
walks around / waiting for you to call out
As your cold hand grasps mine I feel unright
and privileged to be able to look
in your eyes / same chemical as stars
Deformed fingers leave trails of hearts in writing
could three words be the end to births only meaning
Crying to sleep is my remedy
urgently trying to stand on broken / confused legs
Am I looking for reasons not to be happy
emotions catch up with me / I'm too fast for them
----- Poison the Well